Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
I’ve wrote today’s topic in my ‘common notebook’ quite long ago. I think maybe around last three months? Yea. Now that I’ve felt so much better than before (in terms of my health), I would want to give this topic a go. Letsszz :))
I watched Tarbiah Sentap’s short-film called “Titisan Suci” not long before. It has three series which for me easy to be understood as the flow was interesting, partly because the main topic was ‘real’ and speak right to my soul. Besides, each characters in this film truly shined. Overall it was a good short-film where I think we, the young generation should look up to. It was not that cringy or… you know… ‘sentap’ but it was fine. I mean I get it some people actually despised Tarbiah Sentap’s books cause they think the writers were rude or super harsh but whenever I asked them “do you read the book until the last page?” – the answer was a no which is the real problem here.
Ustaz Adnin Roslan (the founder of Tarbiah Sentap) is not someone rude or harsh in conveying his divine message or dakwah (Islamic summons) like most of some type of people in this whole wide world claimed him to be. He was being bold in bringing justice for Islam’s do and don’ts which for majority of people like us would feel like being attacked (although he was spitting a fact tbh) but you see, if you complete his book you would notice that he’s not like who you thought he was. He did sound like ‘scolding’ you at the first note, but at the end, he prevails us upon the mercy of Allah’s forgiveness. He pleads us to turn back to Him and not to continue being heedless in this fana (annihilation) world. He was trying his best to keep us awake and focus on the real world – the Day of Resurrection.
Okay that was a little bit out of the track. Well I’m not sorry.
From the short-film, there is one scene that I couldn’t get it out of my mind and it keep on playing on its own. I forgot which minute it was but that scene truly left an impact in my life. During that scene, these two men were talking to each other (consider one is A and the other one is B). A said to B something like this, “You see, Allah has 100% love of Him, and He has sent 1% of His love to the Earth and with that 1% was shared between 700 thousands of creatures in this world. Just you imagine… how much do we have left with just that 1% being shared by thousand of creatures?”
hm.. even if three months have passed, I’m still blown away by that lines.
And now, can you imagine? Just how many percent was left to us? And still with that 0.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000009% of love running in our veins is more than enough to make one to kill one another for love, to commit suicide in the name of love, to sell her own dignity for love, to give up everything and anything just for love, to feeling hopeless just because his/her relationship fall flat and such. Minus the negative ones – we had mothers who fight for her life just to give birth for her baby, fathers who got swollen eyes by doing multiple jobs to bring comfort for his children, a friend who is willing to assist his/her sick friend etc. We taught we have love enough already but we were wrong – its the up above who had it more than anyone else in this world and the entire universe. Its Allah.
Then, if human’s love was that big, how is Allah’s?
When a bad thing befalls on us, we tend to complain and find ourselves in total despair, thinking there’s no such thing as hope and give up. We tend to question why would Allah send us a test that we don’t think we can ever face but one thing we should bear in mind is, is He really punishing us like this or He is just building us in the long run?
How many times have you felt like it was your last time but believe it or not, you were still here breathing safe and sound? How many times you thought you had it enough and you just about to end everything or treat everyone badly cause your day was equally bad but later you found out someone spared you a cake or someone just made you laughed out loud? How many times you sat there alone, and reminiscing back why you didn’t make it years back but now thanks to the failures you’ve encountered, you knew better and are now progressing to be a better person? Ever think of why Allah sent you those hardships? – because Him Al-Wadud, the Loving One loves you very much from your head to toe that He needs to test you a little bit, just a little bit that you tasted all the bitter parts of life so that He would substitute it with sweet-honey-like parts later, if only you being grateful.
I want to share with you the story of Nabi Yusuf a.s which started by a plot of him being ditched into a well by his own brothers when he was young and then after being discovered, he was sold to become a servant of a rich mayor in the city. He was then falsely accused for doing zina (fornication) with the mayor’s wife and being jailed. What a tough life he had. I mean, since he was young he was isolated by his brothers and hardships befall on him one by one, continuously. If we were in Nabi Yusuf a.s’s shoes, I don’t think we could handle those trials patiently, exactly, like he did. Nabi Yusuf a.s just went with it and trust Allah the Almighty. At last, after he succeeded in interpreting the king’s dream correctly (with Allah’s will), he was released from the prison and the best thing was he got to reunite with his beloved father, Nabi Yaakub a.s after the longest time. (time to shed tears)
At the beginning of Nabi Yusuf a.s’s story, it seems like his life was so devastating and depressing that we questioned why would Allah put him in that kind of situation? But you see, because of Nabi Yusuf a.s’s suffering alone, he has saved lots of lives after he managed to interpret the dream of the king. He explained that the nation would undergo a famine as in future, there was not enough food stocks so the king commanded all of his people to prepare for the upcoming catastrophe. Because of Nabi Yusuf a.s, thousands of children were saved and new generation were born. A suffering of one child equals to thousand lives being saved and the generation continues until now. SubhanAllah … now don’t you think Allah has think of our fate every now and then?
MasyaAllah.
In this story I noticed that its not that Allah didn’t love his prophet Yusuf a.s that he was tested as such. Its because He do and at the end, he gave Yusuf a.s a victory that no one would ever expect. He had been taking good care of Yusuf a.s since the first place. Just imagine, if he was not getting hatred by his other brothers and didn’t being left in the well, would he being found and getting sold to the mayor? And if he didn’t meet the mayor, would he being accused for committing zina and being jailed? Would he then get to interpret dreams? Would he even be able to realize he can actually interpret them? Would he had saved the kids life? Would we still be here?
This got me reminded of a saying,
If it wasn’t for the struggle you wouldn’t have the strength. God is always building you even when it seems like He’s breaking you.
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I just want to say that maybe, just maybe you are in a hard times right now but, I hope you won’t give up just yet and just keep on striving like you always do. Its okay to be slow, to take a break but do not stop. Allah’s mercy and love has no ends and just like Yusuf a.s, the victory of yours will rise soon. The key is to have patience and hope for Allah’s help. If He was the possessor of 100% love, know that His way of loving us is more than a mother scolding her child for playing with dirt, which means He might appear cruel to you and He’s breaking you apart but He is mending you instead. Nevertheless, you’ll never know for He is al-Latif (The Subtle One) that often protecting us in silent, in the most subtle way you could have never known.
I just hope we hang in there juuuuuuuust a little bit and we keep on believing Him although we didn’t see Him. And since now we are currently in the ten days of Zulhijjah, let us regularly do Tasbih, Tahmid, and Takbir as our way of saying “I Love You 3000” to our Lord, Allah ar-Rahman ar-Rahim.
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