Assamualaikum warahmatullah lovelies ❤
First of all, I am really sorry for this super duper late entry. I really tried my best to update as soon as I could but, you know, Allah’s plan is better and insyaAllah today will be that day – where I end this entry that I’ve been trying to finish it and rewrite it over for the 6th time.
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
I’ve came to a good number of people who expressed their concern to me about their future. They were really anxious and incredibly worried about where they’re going and what will the future hold for them. They were also tied up with things and responsibilities and not to mention, expectations where they desperately wanted to achieve to please the people around them. All of these remind me of something – of who I was way back then, when I know nothing about this one beautiful hadith.
On the authority of Abdullah bin Masud, who said : the messenger of Allah, and he is the truthful, the believed narrated to us: “Verily the creation of each one of you is brought together in his mother’s belly for forty days in the form of seed, then he is a clot of blood for a like period, then a morsel of flesh for a like period, then there is sent to him the angel who blows the breath of life into him and who is commanded about four matters: to write down his means of livelihood, his life span, his actions, and whether happy or unhappy. By Allah, other than Whom there is no god, verily one of you behaves like the people of Paradise until there is but an arm’s length between him and it, and that which has been written over takes him and so he behaves like the people of Hell-fire and thus he enters it; and one of you behaves like the people of Hell-fire until there is but an arm’s length between him and it, and that which has been written over takes him and so he behaves like the people of Paradise and thus he enters it.”
aaaa I suppose you don’t really get it at the first catch, am I right? – Its okay, I am here. I’ll try my best to tell you what I got from this beautiful hadith that I hold onto wherever I go, wherever I’ve could been, for it put a serenity in my heart and warmth to the rest of my body.
This hadith tells us that as soon as the angels blew life into a human (even when we were not even a newborn), Allah the Almighty has aligned us His beautiful decree for our firstly, sustenance meaning our rezqi, secondly which is death, thirdly is our good deeds and lastly each of our happiness and calamity. This means that every single details of our life starting from the months even before we were born, the current moment which is now until the very end of our life has been outlined by Allah, attentively, lovingly. Be it our wealth today and tomorrow, our dark days and bliss every now and then and the death of people we’re missing now, its all has been decided by Allah SWT. Its all has been decided.
I don’t know about you but the first thing that came to my mind when I learned about this hadith was, “Ya Allah… why would I worry so much things in my life all this time?”.
Like… why?
Its all has been decided by Him, The Almighty the One Who Decides, and then there I was worrying sickly for whats to come as if He has never think of me and left me unconcerned when all my life, every inch of my life be it the small reason I was smiling back when I was a baby until now I’m typing this entry for you guys have been decided by Him. Every single part of my life has been carved by Him, wonderfully. And no doubt of yours too.
“If He has planned wonderfully just like you said, then why do bad things still happen to me”
First of all, thank you for saying that. I am more than glad to tell you why.
If He had left you gleefully with easiness in life, are you confident enough that you would remember Him at least once a day? The answer is prolly no. Just see how we were when He granted us our duaa and we would still be procastinating our prayer to Him, when in return He is All-Sufficient. He does not need us to serve Him at all, it is us who need to have Him in our heart so that we would be truly alive in this playground.
Every hardships that happen to us are His way of calling us to Him. Be grateful when we were reminded of Him for He is Al-Hayy and al-Qayyum, the Ever-Living One and the The Sustainer when all this world will perish and nothing will last. So, back to the square one – always head back to Him cause He is the One who Remained.
And all in all, I think its the time for us to be less worry about the future. One thing that I realized after implementing this hadith in my life, I became so free. So free that for every thing that happen in my life, I would be so overjoyed thinking that it was planned by my Creator. Like, I would be chasing over classes and yes I’d tripped over something while walking or nearly missed my bus but you know, Allah the Best of Planners has it all figured out for me so why would I worry? Why would I disappoint?
Okay the truth was I still be crying a pile in any other day but deep down after all those storms ended, I could patted myself on the back and said, “Its okay. Allah has it all figured out. I don’t need to burden myself with things I can’t handle. He will handle it for me. I just need to work my best, and have tawakkul in Him”.
When I said “have tawakkul”. Please let go. Let go and LET GOD.
Please, I’m saying this again – I love you, let go and LET GOD, for real.
I know how hard you’ve been keeping things to yourself and how perplexed your mind are now but in the name of Allah, let go all of them of which you were so stressful about. Let He take care of it and believe that He will.
I’ll tell you one story. The story of the mother of Nabi Musa a.s.
His mother was worried sick when she knew about the news of the Pharaoh wanted to kill all of the newborn baby boy of Israel. She was greatly concerned of her beloved baby boy so as she was back and forth about the fate of her and her baby, suddenly a crazy thought of passing her baby down to the river came into her mind. The shocking thing was she unknowingly did the exact thing she was thinking and just as she saw her baby flowing in the river, she wanted to wail her loudest, regretting her decision but, but my dear girls, Allah had held the weak heart of hers and made it firmed again and as a result, Nabi Musa a.s. was the person we now know he was – a powerful man who first were abashed for his inability to speak coherently, had innocently killed a man by punching him strongly and lastly a chosen prophet of Allah SWT to guide his men.
You see, Prophet Musa a.s.’s mother knew nothing about the future of her great son where she once were so worried about but having that deepest tawakkul in Allah’s help and mercy, she went on with her life and at last being reunited with Prophet Musa a.s again. She even got to breastfeed him after he refused to get breastfed by anyone, like anyone at all. And who made it all happen? – Allah The Almighty.
Love, have trust in Him okay? Its not easy as we have been too frequent of letting things weight on our shoulder when the reality is, without the help of Allah nothing would work for us. We have been told that “with effort, you will definitely gain your success” when such thing never existed in Islam. Yes, I repeat my words,
It never existed in Islam. It is toxic and I hope you throw it away from your heart and mind.
But say whuttt isn’t “usaha tangga kejayaan?”
Have you ever wonder how a student who studied 24/7 but didn’t get straight A and then another student who studied last minute but then got his straight A? Back then I didn’t get to interpret this scenario well. I thought it was Allah testing our iman (faith) if we didn’t get our desired grades after working so hard for it. At last after I knew about the hadith above then only everything makes sense.
Our effort is actually the way of Allah wanting to reward us. We put our effort, He grants us His rewards. His rewards is His rahmah (blessings) on us. His rahmah is our ticket to the Jannah. If we work for something and didn’t get to achieved it, fret not my friend. It wasn’t because you didn’t do your best or your best was not enough. Its Allah granting your wish in another way around, in ways you thought have never could possibly been, in ways you thought impossible. Sit down and count your blessings now, girl.
Have you ever do any good deeds and not being contented by it? For instance, have you ever made a kid smile and giggles and then you feel like cutting yourself? – Of course no. Adversely, you would be soooooo happy seeing that kid happy and that is exactly what Allah wants you to feel – happy, content with a flowering heart after doing good. Plus, He’ll grant you his rewards. Allah has only wants goodness for you. Only goodness of goodness.
Another hadith or a verse from Quran (I am terribly sorry for being forgetful about this matter) that keeps on having my heart blooming flowers was, okay hold up I need a moment to calm my excited heart.
The sky and the mountains were very angry if we didn’t do our job of becoming an ‘abid and a khalifah in this world for Allah. Truthfully, the sky wanted to collapse itself onto us while the mountains wanted to crash on us seeing we living as we pleased without having clear purpose of our existence. They just wanted to make us perish from this world out of their hatred on us. However my dear girlfriends, Allah then said to them, ” You do not know how it feels to create a creation. You don’t know that feeling”. This sentence Allah said melted my heart, cause all this while I thought I am not worthy enough to be loved by Him. I have wronged Him so much and maybe disappoints Him a lot but, despite of all that I was and who I may become, He has always purely loving me, endlessly and entirely. He has always chose me, and also YOU, His dearly creation as His centre of view. He has never ever wanted to put us in any harm, nor that He wanted to punish us. And that is why don’t be discouraged in difficult situations. He has never wanted to make things hard for you.
Additionally, when Allah created the Heaven, He made a house for every human, meaning whether he is a Muslim or not, Allah has made a house for him in the Jannahtul Firdaus – the highest level of Jannah. This shows how wadud (loving) He is to us, and how high his hope for us to get into His Jannah and meet Him finally. He just wanted to have us with Him when all of this ended.
I’m not going to write any further. I’ll leave you guys with these two gems to ponder on, and to cry on with me. lol. I am terribly sorry for my shortcomings for not being able to recall the exact origin of where I’ve read these gems from. I hope Allah would reveal it to you Himself, in the most beautiful way, in a way each of us would return back to Him as the way we should’ve been. Till then, take care and bye.
Nur
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